Emotional Landscapes

Blimey, what a week. It turned out to be ridiculously hard - both physically and emotionally, however never have I ever felt so much in harmony with myself. Preparations for lessons this week occupied every minute of my day (despite a few sleeping hours, duh). May I just mention the meticulous, painstaking way my friend & I did History and Culture of Germany. Goodness gracious I absolutely loved it, and the results paid off. Right now I have the urge to properly learn German.

Again, a cheeky recall to my previous post, I mention the University atmosphere, it may sound like an overdose of sugar and honey, yet  the lovely people I'm surrounded with every single day make me feel warm on the inside. Still getting my head around how amazing mankind is - we're all so different, and nonetheless talented and capable of incredible things.

 These words gently lead me on to the story of what happened today. I had a magnificent opportunity to be speaker (FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY ENTIRE LIIIFE, okay I'm done yelling) in our University's English Club. No idea how to express the amount of emotions I've had the fortune to experience, simply because I've never seen people listen to me with such eagerness and enjoyment. They laughed at my jokes, asked questions and thanked me at the end of my speech. Followed by the discussion of 'English over the decades' my lecture finished with the students telling me how fun everything was. Without the slightest bit of doubt I can say - today I'm happy.

This post is short. Short but sweet.

-Stacey x

Listening to the World & looking for the Answers

Greetings to you, reader. It really has been a while.

Ever noticed that funny feeling of change as you grow older? Becoming a young adult you face a reflux of stability and a flux of responsibility and problems. Your day starts a lot earlier and finishes a whole lot later (or if you're totally bonkers you "don't have the time" to sleep properly). All that pressure, rush, and pursuit of happiness make us miss the basics of tranquillity and communication. What I'm trying to say is that having lived in Krasnodar for a year I seem to have absorbed in the atmosphere of the city completely and fully. Such a weird soothing feeling which I never experienced during my 1st year here. I noticed my interest in sounds around me outside - when a tram, rumbling heavily, crawls past, showing me a funny bunch of wan exhausted faces that remind me of miserable sparrows ruffling up their feathers and shivering on bare tree branches.. or when one of the leaves makes one last solemn waltz move and gently lands on wet pavement. I've done a great deal of reminiscing during the past 2 weeks - atmospheric music tracks, foggy mornings and small talks.. I suppose nothing can express how much I love Autumn.

A bloody lot of stuff has happened recently and I seem to have realised and experienced even more than I'd have expected to. The emotional landscapes of various surprises I face almost everyday.. some made me feel happy and downright over the moon, while others left me confused and uneasy. Some of them still bug me to be honest, but hey, if one doesn't have any problems, he/she needs to check the pulse. But enough moaning.

 This autumn feels ridiculously pleasurable and cosy - wrapping myself up with a scarf, sipping green tea out of the mug way too big for Stacey (do I really need to list all the amazing autumnal things?). I've been feeling quite in tune with my inner self recently, yet I feel rather lonely at times. I have the urge to study and learn - this is probably the most important bit of my life right now - getting an education and looking for the answers. THE QUESTIONS! OH GOD, I HAVE WAAY TOO MANY AT THE MOMENT. But along with them I'm learning to master the art of patience. I'm still searching for myself I guess.

Another circumstance that's making me really happy is my University - I just love literally everything about it. Getting to know people is pretty much one of my favourite things to do.

This post is shaping up to be a rubbish load of words and controversial feelings, but goodness, I am simply not capable of putting my thoughts together to form an adequate realistic sentence. I may have used too many metaphors, but I guess this is just me? Stacey - the girl who's madly in love with the English language.

All the emotions. (My first ever lesson)

Evening my reader, I hope all is well and you've had a good day. And I'd love to say a personal hello to A.Prima - my most devoted reader and one of the most amazing, kindest and loving people I have had the good fortune to meet.

This new year has been truly incredible so far - the amount of new teachers & subjects combined with the massive chunk of information made my head go slightly dizzy (in a good way!). I thoroughly enjoyed being back on my first day of year 2  - old familiar faces, jubilant and excited talks about the recent-but-gone-for-good holidays, casual questions of completely confused freshmen like "where is the bloody classroom?!". It'd be fair to say I've come to a confident realisation of my love to The University. The very place where I feel myself change, where I become more "me". So many emotions again, someone help me out haha. Education is genuinely a remarkable thing.

There's another reason why I'm typing away - my first very own lesson took place just yesterday. Gosh, I'm still not over the fact I was actually teaching a bunch of 25 year olds. How did this even happen?? (considering my height the situation probably looked even more hilarious)
But nonetheless I cannot express how immensely grateful and happy I am for this opportunity - after the lesson was over I realised what great work responsibility it is to be a Teacher. The number of little things (including psychological!) it requires, the ability to love and appreciate your students yet not to let them relax and pass the most of your Knowledge onto them. INTERACTION, for God's sake.

I can go on talking about this literally for ages, but tonight my time is unfortunately limited (duh) as I am TRANSLATING A MOTHERFRICKING GERMAN LECTURE. How bloody awesome is that?? Jeez, take me three years ago, back to the times when I was a spineless scholar learning mathematical formulae (which turned out to be of absolutely no use at all), dreaming to have English (and partly German!) lectures and being surrounded with soulmates who are passionate about it too. I've heard that if you strongly wish for something, The Universe tends to do everything possible for you to achieve you goal. Why, I'm starting to think there really is something about this statement.

To conclude I'd love to mention (guess what aha) the weather. Seriously buzzing for the chill, autumn is just hands down my favourite season of all - those dull, cold, grey, rainy days are eeverything. Oh and it's also going to be my birthday in under a week, but for some particular reason I'm not looking forward to the celebration haha, think I'm totally rubbish at organising any kind of parties. But who knows, guess I'll just see what happens.

-Stacey x