Ever noticed that funny feeling of change as you grow older? Becoming a young adult you face a reflux of stability and a flux of responsibility and problems. Your day starts a lot earlier and finishes a whole lot later (or if you're totally bonkers you "don't have the time" to sleep properly). All that pressure, rush, and pursuit of happiness make us miss the basics of tranquillity and communication. What I'm trying to say is that having lived in Krasnodar for a year I seem to have absorbed in the atmosphere of the city completely and fully. Such a weird soothing feeling which I never experienced during my 1st year here. I noticed my interest in sounds around me outside - when a tram, rumbling heavily, crawls past, showing me a funny bunch of wan exhausted faces that remind me of miserable sparrows ruffling up their feathers and shivering on bare tree branches.. or when one of the leaves makes one last solemn waltz move and gently lands on wet pavement. I've done a great deal of reminiscing during the past 2 weeks - atmospheric music tracks, foggy mornings and small talks.. I suppose nothing can express how much I love Autumn.
A bloody lot of stuff has happened recently and I seem to have realised and experienced even more than I'd have expected to. The emotional landscapes of various surprises I face almost everyday.. some made me feel happy and downright over the moon, while others left me confused and uneasy. Some of them still bug me to be honest, but hey, if one doesn't have any problems, he/she needs to check the pulse. But enough moaning.
This autumn feels ridiculously pleasurable and cosy - wrapping myself up with a scarf, sipping green tea out of the mug way too big for Stacey (do I really need to list all the amazing autumnal things?). I've been feeling quite in tune with my inner self recently, yet I feel rather lonely at times. I have the urge to study and learn - this is probably the most important bit of my life right now - getting an education and looking for the answers. THE QUESTIONS! OH GOD, I HAVE WAAY TOO MANY AT THE MOMENT. But along with them I'm learning to master the art of patience. I'm still searching for myself I guess.
Another circumstance that's making me really happy is my University - I just love literally everything about it. Getting to know people is pretty much one of my favourite things to do.
This post is shaping up to be a rubbish load of words and controversial feelings, but goodness, I am simply not capable of putting my thoughts together to form an adequate realistic sentence. I may have used too many metaphors, but I guess this is just me? Stacey - the girl who's madly in love with the English language.
This autumn feels ridiculously pleasurable and cosy - wrapping myself up with a scarf, sipping green tea out of the mug way too big for Stacey (do I really need to list all the amazing autumnal things?). I've been feeling quite in tune with my inner self recently, yet I feel rather lonely at times. I have the urge to study and learn - this is probably the most important bit of my life right now - getting an education and looking for the answers. THE QUESTIONS! OH GOD, I HAVE WAAY TOO MANY AT THE MOMENT. But along with them I'm learning to master the art of patience. I'm still searching for myself I guess.
Another circumstance that's making me really happy is my University - I just love literally everything about it. Getting to know people is pretty much one of my favourite things to do.
This post is shaping up to be a rubbish load of words and controversial feelings, but goodness, I am simply not capable of putting my thoughts together to form an adequate realistic sentence. I may have used too many metaphors, but I guess this is just me? Stacey - the girl who's madly in love with the English language.
